Wednesday, September 30, 2009

ReFleCTioN

As I sit here in my studio apartment in Hollywood looking out past Sunset Blvd looking onto downtown hearing all the motion of traffic and sirens from fire trucks go by... I think to myself... how lucky am I and how did I get here. LOL!!! LA was never where I wanted to be living at this point in my life... I came here kicking and screaming because I wanted what I wanted and didnt want to go where "they " wanted me. What happend to me going back and living in NYC...

That dream is put on hold because one day I know I will be back again.....

So here I am Sitting all alone .... THINKING..... I really live here in LA... a place people only dream of coming.. BECAUSE HERE-----> DREAMs happen. LA is a 24/7 job.... everyone came here for something... acting, fashion, ect..... you FIGHT to become something here.

And look at me... I went to one of the best fashion schools in the country, worked for a fashion designer, gained experience, moved up the later, blew other interviews, and yet I feel into a job that I get to do everything I know and love to do..

Who would of ever thought I would be one of the designers designing something NEW, something thats never been invented b4. ...

For a long time I knew I had a lot of interests, but didnt know really where I fit in... and slowly I am seeing it. I work in the FASHION industry...I made it, I am doing my dream job... FASHION. & right now it doesnt even matter what kind of fashion it is .. because I am already in the door!!!

I also am working on my independent line... I want to make a name for myself....it doesnt have to be as BIG as chanel, BUT MAYBE ONE DAY!

I sit hear also thinking WOW... most people my age are still back home in michigan living with there parents, and I have been out experiencing the world sense I was 18! LOL traveling around with no money... CAN WE SAY ADVENTUUURRE! TEEEHEHEHE... making new life long friends along the way....

& speaking of friends.... as I look around my apartment at all the 100000000 of pictures I have up, I see all the people who matter to me the most, true, wonderful, sweet, funny, loving, caring , beautiful, creative, handsome, crazy,.... friends and family. These people have been there for me, to laugh, cry, learn, travel... and most of all grow with threw out the years...They are all spread out all over the US and world...some I see more then others and some I talk to more then others!!! But I know that I love each and everyone of them with all that I have!

And I know that the ones who are still in my life are there for a reason!!!

miss renee